I read several articles in a journal that were all negative toward anti depressants. They promoted natural remedies and exercise that they said were better than anti depressants. They made me question myself, my struggle, and whether I should take the medication or whether I should continue this struggle looking for an alternative.
If sheer will could have saved me, I would have been well a long time ago.
I spent years trying natural remedies. I am sure they did help me some. But in the end I was still left with this torture of sadness and crying and unable to function or enjoy life.
All this talk of trashing medication made me so afraid. I struggled and agonized over whether to take the medication or continue trying to be strong
while barely living a life with any lasting quality.
I took the medication and now I am angry at all those articles I read, and the headlines on the covers of magazines I see in stores.
I don’t think they know the difference between being depressed and depression. Someone who is depressed may find help in natural ways through exercise and supplements. But depression is a darkness, with a crippling overwhelming grip that paralyzes and keeps you from being able to function.
Depression doesn’t let you take care of your most basic needs. It renders you helpless and unable to exercise.
I wish they differentiated between feeling depressed and depression. It makes me wonder how many people like myself read these articles and
headlines and don’t get help. Medication has its place. It can be life saving to someone with depression.
It gave me some relief within a very short period of time. I didn’t know my life could be any different than what I have known for so long.
I have a chance to live, to be without the constant pain and suffering that was suffocating me. The pain and fear that overwhelmed me was stealing my life.
Medication has its place. It lifted the veil that would not let me see a future. I am grateful for what I already am experiencing inside of me. We accept pain medication for physical pain. Anti depressants can give relief for emotional pain and a reprieve from the constant torment of depression.
It doesn’t make you numb. It doesn’t take the pain away. But it does let you live without being constantly tormented by the pain. My emotions still rise up inside of me at times, especially when I go to therapy. I don’t know what it will be like once I start dealing with my past. But the medication does let me live without constantly feeling sad and distant and as though I don’t belong here. And for that I am very grateful.